Perhaps Then

 I begged the universe

to allow me to surrender

to your love proclaimed,

to your promises of bliss

that are alluring

and cause me to feel

the me who is,

the me who hides,

broken and

in fear of being hurt,

abandoned.

I cried out to the universe

to allow me to accept

your displays of devotion

and apparent truthfulness

of your words, but

the universe did not respond.

Or did it?

Perhaps its silence

was telling me to

rely on my instincts,

to take risks,

to trust the clarity and power

of your intentions.

Perhaps then I’ll be able to

take in all that love

you claim to feel for me.

Perhaps then I will

experience a different

passion,

calm and profound..

Perhaps then this

gnawing emptiness

and fear that cripples

will go away.

ACCEPTANCE

          Surrendering to our present circumstances

          is not cowardice or conformity,

          it is the realization that life is not perfect

          and is always in movement.

         Surrendering to our present circumstances

         is to understand that at times

         feeling sad or frustrated is

         because we have delayed our dreams,

         because we feel trapped by our

         moral obligations,

         values instilled in us at a tender age.

        Perhaps surrendering is not the right word,

        and in its place we need to say

        acceptance.

        Acceptance of our present moment

        implies grace and gratitude,

        sprinkled with the knowledge

        that life is not perfect

       and is always in movement.

       Acceptance is knowing

       that this, our present moment,

       whether pleasant or disconcerting,

       is not everlasting.