The Woman in the Mirror

When I look in the mirror

I see a woman with

expressive, golden brown eyes,

fair skin, & enticing smile.

I see a wife & mother who

has so much love to give.

I also see a professional,

one who works hard &

is climbing the proverbial

corporate ladder.

Then I ask myself:

Why is it that in spite of all

my qualities & achievements,

there are times when thoughts

of unworthiness creep into

my mind and tell me that

I’m not good enough?

It is on those days that I

can only see a person who is

misunderstood, unloved & flawed.

The inner connection is broken,

the dense fog of unworthiness,

creeps in, holds on to me,

tight & unrelenting, causing

feelings of frustration,

anxiety, inadequacy,

almost total breakdown.

The false image of perfection

I try so hard to achieve fades,

self-judgment is harsh.

Then, like the miracle of nature

that dissipates early morning fog

through gentle, warm winds &

a sun that shines strong & steadfast,

I decide to quiet the voices of

self-criticism & censorship,

I decide to listen to my heart,

choosing to dwell on love & self-respect.

The fog lifts.

When I look in the mirror,

once again I see the woman I am;

beautiful inside as reflected outside,

willing to share my love & happiness

with those who see me in the same light,

with those who accept me & my imperfections,

with those who accept my humanness.

Once again, all is well.

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© Mildred Santiago